mirror

where is the child i used to see
who always smiled with the morning sun
she'd gone as the time went by
now all i could see is just
nobody
or maybe somebody
that i no longer recognize
a deep fear
an unspeakable agony
through a gritted teeth
on each morning sun
before went back at night
with another fear
and the newborn agony
that another day
might kill me eventually
and i wish
i could end all of this
with the shattered glass
of the broken mirror

Light of The Firefly

The lights were gone
And the darkness fall
I thought this is the time
To close my eyes
And drown into my dream
But why I still wide awake
My eyes restlessly looking
For the luminescence light
Of the firefly that flew by
It's just a luminescence light
It might be go away soon
Or it might already gone
Before i could reach for it
It's just a firefly
It'll come and go easily
But why do i still
Silently wishing for it to touch my hand?

Thank you God ...

Thank you God ...

Tired of fake hopes

I’m tired of all the fake hopes
Why You lifted me up high, God?
If in the end
I’ll fall into the ground
Or just floating in emptiness
That will kill me eventually
Don’t You think that I have not enough time, God?
To face all of this
The time had beaten me up mercilessly
Until I hardly had had enough strength
To stand up in my own fragile feet
I wish to run
Far away from all of this
Until I found my darkness
Where I could lay down there in peace
Forever

sand clock

fight for my own sanity
without anyone to hold to
i don't know how much more
i could cope
i might be just like
the sand on the sea
waiting for the final wave
to erase me
forever