Banshee

everytime she opens her lips to speak
everything around her shattered before her
she tries and tries to find the reason why
but only debris she can find

maybe it's a curse. maybe it's bad luck
maybe it's the unspeakable agony inside her
maybe she just can't let it go
maybe it's because the fate said so

she tries to fly towards the sky
close her eyes and pretend it's okay
she's lost her faith, so don't bother to pray
because all she wants is just fade away

our encounter

life went by
years had passed
since i promised myself
not to think of you anymore
and let these wounds you left me heal
let the scars covered it
so i wouldnt let myself dying
in a pain i could no longer endure
such an innocence i had
when i first saw you
i didn't even know what the true meaning of 'love' is
except when i looked into your eyes
i wished that you would wait for me
until my feet grew stronger and stronger
and i could reach for you
but the time, the time just couldn't wait
and it took you away from me
left the heart that i hadn't got chance to give
all the tears fell from these two eyes
wouldn't bring me closer to you
only left me with emptiness
and even when i screamed your name
all i could hear is my own voice
before i walked away
let the footsteps echoed in the darkness
and now you came back to me
your presence before me so vividly
but once more before i could reach for you
i opened my eyes and you're gone
so this will be my last tears for you
and for the first time, i said this from the bottom of my heart
"thank you, my love ...
sleep tight in your eternity
i wish one day
i could be in your side
and that time
there will be no separation"

whisper

close your eyes
let them all fade away
as the morning myst
but this time, no sunrise will come

mirror

where is the child i used to see
who always smiled with the morning sun
she'd gone as the time went by
now all i could see is just
nobody
or maybe somebody
that i no longer recognize
a deep fear
an unspeakable agony
through a gritted teeth
on each morning sun
before went back at night
with another fear
and the newborn agony
that another day
might kill me eventually
and i wish
i could end all of this
with the shattered glass
of the broken mirror

Light of The Firefly

The lights were gone
And the darkness fall
I thought this is the time
To close my eyes
And drown into my dream
But why I still wide awake
My eyes restlessly looking
For the luminescence light
Of the firefly that flew by
It's just a luminescence light
It might be go away soon
Or it might already gone
Before i could reach for it
It's just a firefly
It'll come and go easily
But why do i still
Silently wishing for it to touch my hand?

Thank you God ...

Thank you God ...

Tired of fake hopes

I’m tired of all the fake hopes
Why You lifted me up high, God?
If in the end
I’ll fall into the ground
Or just floating in emptiness
That will kill me eventually
Don’t You think that I have not enough time, God?
To face all of this
The time had beaten me up mercilessly
Until I hardly had had enough strength
To stand up in my own fragile feet
I wish to run
Far away from all of this
Until I found my darkness
Where I could lay down there in peace
Forever